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ALL OF MY NEW ART WILL BE UPLOADED ONTO MY NEW ACCOUNT.

I have been thinking about making a new account for a while now , and I randomly decided to do it.
I just think my username is a little out of date. I actually hate the name "jackiejealousy". i think it screams immaturity , and I want to be taken a little more seriously as an artist.


so please re-fave and watch.
and if you wanna , id really appriciate it if you spread the word a bit.
love you guys

A few seriously inspirational works of art.

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So , remember those photo series ideas I had you all vote on ? I've been working on them and I should be done with the first one (seven deadly sins) very shortly.
I've been working on my own ideas lately, and I nodiced something really odd about dA. As many as my long-term followers know , my style and concepts have really changed since the day I started photography. I feel like I'm straying away from my old self , and in a way thats really good for me. I nodiced that the photos I feel are my strongest and most asthetically appealing get the least recognition here on dA, and the ones I'm not that fond of get the most. I'm in no way complaining , I seriously appriciate all the love I get here , its just a little observation I made. (: In the past I stuck to sort of , clique photos , less conceptual. I figured that , because of the great feedback , thats whatt I'm best at. But I recently have been breaking the mold I made for myself.
Anyway , most of you know , I got a new camera!!! Its a nikon coolpix L110. My amazing boyfriend gifted it to me for our anneversery. He's such a lifesaver! ♥ I've been experimenting and shooting with it non-stop since he gave it to me , and I must say , I'm in love.
OH! And I think you guys will like this! I'm doing a series of close-up portraits. Something I haven't done in a looong time. It involves glitter , mini mouse ears (i made 3 different pairs) , glitter , and lipstick. I'll give you a prieview hopefully before the end of the weekend.
Another quick note ,
I just want to thank you guys from the bottom of my heart on all the warm messages and comments I get. It really means so much to me , you have no idea. I read every single comment you guys leave. I promise I'll be better about replying sooner , I'm really short on time I get online nowadays. Also , for everyone that comments , I just want you to know I view everyone of your galleries and youre all soo talented! I love you all so much!

if you have any questions , need a favor (pcture editing ect.) or just wanna chit chat ,
you can email me at
JacquiVanK@aim.com

my camera is broken.

i wanna change my icon
but i cant get the picture small enough without it being wicked distorted
and i  know some of my watchers have really good quality icons ,
and im jealous.
just ask me for the picture and ill send it to you

show some love ,




ps. , ill have the first photo from the "favorite songs" series up hopefully by the end of the weekend. (maybe even today?)

I kinda wanna mix things up a little. I'm going to do the "seven deadly sins" series first , but I've been really busy lately. I'm going to have a little fun first (not that that series arnt gonna be fun).
I'm going thru alot of changes , and sort of finding myself in every aspect of who I am. I'm never going to stop doing what I love tho , and thats my art.
anyway , im looking for models right now and wanna just sort of branch out both as a model and a photographer. if youre interested , and in my area , you should totallly note me , haha.

I love all of my watchers , and I thought I would do something fun that gets you guys involved with my art! Heres what I'd love to do ,
youu guys can comment this journal , and suggest a new theme , or photo concept for my next series.
I'll take the ones you suggest , and have you all vote for them in a poll. Which ever concept/idea gets the most votes , I'll shoot next weekend. And I'll credit you for the idea in the artist comments , of course (:
all of you seem to be really creative and really smart , so I think I can trust you with comming up with some really good ideas. Keep in mind , even if your idea doesnt win , I may still shoot it depending on how much i love it.
I'm so excited to hear your ideas!
if you have a really specific idea , send me a note and we can colaborate! love you all


[I'd like all suggestions in by Wednesday , and the polls will be closed that Friday!]

I've been under so much stress lately. School has really been breaking my spirit , along with all the fake people in it. At least summer is right around the corner, I'm going to change my life for the better , starting today. Thank GOD for my boyfriend , I have no idea what I'd do without him.
Annnnyyways , I'm sorry I havent posted anything new in a while , I've been feeling like shit about pretty much everything and I haven't had a photoshoot in soooo long. I promise something new within the next couple weeks. (: i love you allllll.
ps. [link] <3 anyone feeling generous ? hahaha




Singin' don't worry , cause every little thing , is gonna be alright.

Recently , I've been having some really strange dreams. Like REALLLY strange.

Okay, I was actually really disturbed by this last dream and I can't like really explain why.

Heres what happened: I woke up in my room and walked into the bathroom, and washed my face, brushed my teeth, you know , the regular morning ruiteen and then my nose started to bleed and when i put a tissue to it, it colapsed. like the bone and cartalage just disapeared and it was just skin and blood. and i kept trying to fix it, and it would just colapse again and fall appart and i was screaming for my mom to call an ambulence and she wouldnt. she just kept trying to fix it and failing. i woke up screaming and crying and my pillow was soaked with tears. ive had this same dream three times. it really shook me up for the rest of the day.
im actually really self consious about my nose.

does anyone have any insight as to what that might mean ? i cant stop thinking about it for some reason.

also, i have alot of dreams with jesus in them. I've had dreams where he was crusified on a cross in my living room and i was standing knee deep in blood. ive had dreams where hes crusified in my bedroom, or laying dead on my bed, or in my back yard.
my mother is also in almost all my my dreams.

One dream imparticular, started like this :
my brother and i were in my dining room sitting by this big big open window into my backyard. it was really dark out. everytime i looked outside, the window would fly open and all of the trees in my backyard (theres about ten very tall pine trees all spred out) would come together like in a cluster touching eachother in the middle of my yard, and id be like "BOBBY (my brother) LOOK!!" and he'd look over, and the window would be closed and the trees would be back to normal. That happened like 4 times, then a man with a torn bloody shirt ran across the yard. Me and my brother were just like "wtf was that?!" and then a black car going wicked fast skidded behind him, tearing up all the grass, and stopped at the window. This time when I looked out the window, the trees were where they are normally, but jesus was crusified on each tree and he was laughing at me. I was screaming at him to stop and he wouldnt. Three big black shaddows got out of the car, (they wernt really that scary looking in my dream, but i could tell they were bad) and my mom ran down the stairs yelling "theyre here! theyre here! common bob, jackie, come with me!" and we went into my basement, and it was a swamp. There was snakes and my brother carried me across. the three of us (my mother, brother an i) hid in my basement and my mother was like "its okay, theyre just going to come get you for a while" and my brother and i were wicked scared like "screaming WHO? WHO ARE THEY?!" and she was like "jackie, shhhhh" and i was crying and trying to be quiet because i could hear someone comming down the stairs. I saw a big shadow come at me really fast and then I woke up wicked scared.

I really hate these dreams , i cant stop thinking about them.

OMG! and last week i had a dream that i was back in jr.high, and they announced a list of names over the intercom and told them all to go to the music room and i was on the list but i didnt know why. and when i got down there, the devil was there and there was a big pit of fire in the middle of the floor and we were all lined up against the walls with a grave in frount of us. i texted the devil (why the fuck did i have satans number?) and asked him to dismiss me to the bathroom and he said okay. when i got to the hallway my mom was there with my brother dismissing him and i asked her to dismiss me and she wouldnt and a woman dragged me back to the room and my mother pretended she didnt know me.

wierd right? does anyone have any info about what this means? how can i stop having nightmares like this?

just fyi, the last journal wasnt an april fools joke. I'm sick of being called a narcissist. Trust me, I have the lowest self esteme of anyone I know, and in no way do I think highly of myself. I'm going thru a reaaalllly hard time, so I'm kindof on the edge here emotionally. I almost deleted my dA a moment ago, but a few kind words from some very nice dA members and my mother talked me out of it.

Just so you all know, I might not respond to EVERY comment I get here on dA, but I read allll of them. I really think about the things you say and I'm trying my best to improve.
Also, please remember, I'm only 15. I'm SINKING in school work right now. This site was sopose to be fun and to improve my work, not to make me feel like shit about it.

I'm sorry I haven't posted anything new for a while, I've been really distracted with things going on at home. I've been very private about it as far as blogs and social networking goes, but I think it's about time I tell all my beloved watchers on dA my situation.
In late october, my father left my mother, and my brother and I, leaving us all devistated and confused. Because he left, we couldn't afford our house, which I've lived in since I was 5, it was foreclosed. For a while, we had no idea where we were going to live or what we were going to do. And to make matters worse, I went through a really rocky breakup while all this was gong on, and underwent harsh, vicious verbal abuse from my ex, and his friends. For the past six months, my life has been like a trip to hell, but I'm ready to stop dwelling on it, and move foward.
Currently, I'm in love with an amazing boy, and we've found a nice little house to rent. I'm dieting and working out again, finnnnaallllly. I gained almost 20 lbs since last summer ): BUT! since i started dieting I lost 10 lbs. Everythings going pretty well except for school, I'm failing almost everything (except art.. what a shocker!) , so I just need to take controll of my life back. I want to thank all of you for the kind words. Logging onto my dA was a little bright point of my day through all of this. I love you.

I collect french and chinese cigaretts,

but I don't have a credit card and my mom won't buy me these [link] because she doesn't think theyre real (she usually comes with me to buy them from cigar shops).
So, if anyone will please please buy me these [link] , I will thank you with:
====A personalized photo with your dA username in it
====A YEAR long feature in my journal
====A art collabiraton (where we mesh ideas and images for my next photo
and you will be credited in the Artist's Comments)
====I will post a link to your gallery in my signature (the link will show
when I comment anything on dA)
As you can see, I really want these haha.

SEND ME A PRIVATE NOTE, PLEASE!

seriously.
i will feature you in my journal for like the rest of my life,
if you buy me these:

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literally. ill fucking worship you.
theyre so fucking rad. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.
POST A PHOTO OF MY SELF WITH YOUR dA USERNAME WRITTEN ON MYSELF!!!!!!

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OMG! I FORGOT TO ADD THAT MY SISTER AND I COLLECT FORGIEN CIGARETTS! haha they arnt for smoking >.<
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Tomorow , my mom's friend from work is lending me a really nice camera to borrow for a week or so and I can finalllllly carry out some ideas I had that I needed a good macro for. The macro on my camera SUCKSS (as you can see by the complete and utter LACK of macro shots in my gallery, haha) , and the date that I'm getting my new camera has been delayed. ):
BUUUUUT ANNNNYYYHOOOOO, tomorow , I'm going to be super duper extremely productive and not waste one second of daylight , haha.
AND AND ANNNNDDD , I'm planning on posting a few pictures of my boyfriend. (: he makes me super duper happy and la la la , you know the deal. haha. I'm excited tho. Like , SUPERRRR excited to show you my favvvoorite boy ever. Oh , and P.S., I have a wicked busy weekend planned , 4 photoshoots... WOAH. So I don't think I'll be on dA much , but I'll have shots edited and posted ASAP! I promise. (: looooove you. Also , look out for my Flickr , I post random stuff on there that I never post on dA. [link] [link] [link]

I need models sooo bad ): I'm planning on shooting with Erin, one of my bestfriends since 6th grade. I have a bunch of concepts and Ideas , but I've been sooo busy with school lately. The amount of work is reediculouuuus. But, I'm managing to keep up with it, for once. Also, now that I'm taking two art classes, school seems a little easier to get up for in the morning , haha. I looove my art teacher , he's really creative and inspiring.
In other news , Im very happy. Happier than I can remember being in a very long time.

ps. he's finally mine.